Why Should I Feel Discouraged?

Today my world looks grey, today I feel lost and wonder where this journey is taking me. I'm not unlucky, my life is not empty a friend said to me today "it's not all that bad, your family is healthy" This should be enough shouldn't it? I have a loving family, healthy family, I'm healthy and I have a roof over my head and some money in my pocket, yet today my world looks grey.

It got me thinking about a song "His Eye is on the Sparrow" a beautiful song with a message so strong that while it is encouraging it also makes me sad that I struggle to just be content.

His eye IS on the sparrow and I do know that he watches over me, but I don't deserve that, I don't give him my time or my full attention- I don't know how to anymore.

A short film challenged me on the power and use of prayer and maybe this is where my thoughts have stemmed from today? The film asked the question why does God answer some prayers but not others? I was left with the message that I always knew to be true, prayer is not a passive action it requires a response not just from God but from us. Don't pray that God will feed a Hungry child if you have the power to give a child food.

But what does it all mean to me?

Today my world looked grey... but tonight I'm reminded that there is still hope

Why should I feel discouraged,
Why should the shadows come,
Why should my heart feel lonely
And long for Heav'n and home,
When Jesus is my portion?
A constant Friend is He:
His eye is on the sparrow,
And I know He watches over me;
His eye is on the sparrow,
And I know He watches me.