Saturday, May 21, 2011

am i ready?

so some say that in 38 minutes the rapture is going to happen! I am doubtful that we will be able to predict to the time when the rapture will occur as this would kinda defeat the purpose of faith and trust in God, but none the less, the idea got me thinking.
If in 36 minutes the rapture does occur what will happen to me. How do you know if your faith is enough. I believe that I will be taken to heaven but what if I'm wrong what if my faith is not strong enough. I know that the thing about faith is that it is exactly that- Faith.
I think it would be nice to have a clear answer about where we are headed but can we ever really have that 100% we can have a strong belief but can we ever be truely, undeniably certain?
In 30 minutes we might experience the rapture my only hope is that I will be with my family, that I will be safe and that my faith is enough.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Controlling my own destiny?

"She is controlling her own destiny!"
What does this mean? would anyone say this about me?
I don't feel like I'm controlling my own destiny, sure I have plans and goals and wishes for the future but I think I would certainly describe myself as floating along rather than being in control.
I control what I feel I can and the rest I leave up to someone else?

I am lonely, I am content, I am happy, but I am lonely. I don't even know if it is possible to be all of these things at once... but thats just me I guess.

I am dreaming of something else.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Don't forget to remember me

I was driving along down the highway with Carrie Underwood pumping through the speakers, for reasons unknown I was overtaken by a sense of joy and calm.
I felt like everything was right with the world and I was exactly where I was supposed to be. The moment passed as I sank deeper into the lyrics of the songs, reliving tales of happiness and heartbreak.
The music took me to places long forgotten to thoughts and days gone by and made me feel, not happy or sad but a sense of calm reminiscence.
At that moment, had someone interrupted me or asked me what I was thinking, they may have thought me sad or lonely but I wasn't, I'm not.
We can't get back what we had in the past, we can't wish it back or try and make history repeat, but we can remember it, and sometimes it is nice to think that maybe there is someone else in the world who is enjoying this same calm reminiscence about me.

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